Saturday, September 13, 2008

In Which I Haiku

I've had these thoughts roaming around my head for a couple of weeks now. For some reason, putting these thoughts into the right words has been exceedingly difficult, and this has been the only way that I can get them on paper. Regardless, they are begging for escape through my fingertips, and today I grant them their freedom.

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My head in my hands,
I cannot write. Nothing safe
is coming to mind.

I refuse to write
about politics, and I
won't write about God.

I won't write of the
economy, though my own
wallet is worn thin.

I won't write about
the war, I won't write of such
things as abortion.

I won't write about
family problems that keep me
from sleeping at night.

I can lay out my
own struggles in words; I don't
mind sharing that. But...

I can't divulge the
personal devils that rest
heavy on my back.

Strange, that in this world
of free speech and opinions,
I feel limited.

Strange, that in this space
where I control all content,
I restrict myself.

I hold back, for fear
of losing a reader, fear
of causing offense.

I avoid the all the
touchy subjects because I
hate controversy.

I don't use this space
to talk about the things I've
mentioned here, but they...

They, to me, are still
important. I just choose not
to voice my thoughts here.

I'm not ignoring
the issues that plague us. This
is just not the place.

15 Comments:

attiton said...

Ah, yes, but for fear of losing a readership that wishes to hear what you have to say, you squelch your desire to speak your mind?

You lose either way.

Badass Geek said...

Attiton: You bring up a valid point, and you are right: I do lose either way. I just wanted my readers to know that I am not ignorant about the important issues at hand today, because of the fact that I don't voice my thoughts on them at all.

Lola said...

Write what you want, man. Nobody cares if you talk about politics or your thoughts on God. You don't need to.

Since I do talk about how I feel on pretty much anything, touchy subjects included, I know I'm going to piss off some people, but so what. I know I've lost a few readers, but I've gained more.

If you want to speak your mind, then by all means, do it. If you don't, don't. Just know that I've got your back if you do, and I would never leave if you said something I don't agree with. I love bloggy debates!

Daddy Files said...

I agree with Lola.

In fact, I'd take it a step further. I'd be more inclined to visit a blog that had raging debate all the time than one where everyone always gets along and sings kumbaya around a campfire. Not saying that's what your blog is, I'm just speaking in general.

It's your space and your forum. Use it however you see fit and to hell with anyone who disagrees or gets upset.

scatterbrain said...

Hey! I thought you weren't blogging on weekends!

Well, the thoughtful Haiku proves you’re not lost for words.

I sometimes scratch my head over these issues. It’s whatever you feel comfortable with. As Lola said – your individual blog, your rules. So what if you lose some readers? Others will take their place.

Personally, I enjoy the diverse mix of passionate views, forthright opinions, angst, revelations, bawdy humour as well as creativeness and gentle sensitivity. Just as long as they’re intelligently written. There are no rules. I'd find continual raging debates tiresome.

Not being ready to reveal the minutiae of my struggles, sex life or whether I take C or D cup, I choose to provide a smile on my current blog. Some need uplifting and a positive approach – some may describe it as buttoned-up or wishy-washy. When my knowledge of coding and writing improve, I may set up a totally different blog.

For what it's worth, from the first – I perceived intelligence, a ready wit, talent, sweetness and good manners. That’s why I read your blog – because I like the you that comes across. That's enough compliments for today.

I’ve also been know to write overly-heartfelt comments that yadder-yadder yadder... Sombody stop me!-x

Badass Geek said...

Lola: I know that I can write whatever I want here, but I wanted to let my readers know that I wasn't ignoring the important issues at hand. I just don't care to discuss them here, is all. The next time I'm in the mood to debate, though, I'll be knocking on your door.

Daddy Files: So I guess I'll put down my guitar and matches, then. ;)

Scatterbrain: I almost didn't post this entry on Saturday. I thought about waiting until Monday, but I had it written and decided to go for it. I appreciate, as always, your kind words, and wish that our countries were closer so I could give you a hug.

Heather said...

I prefer to not go into current events, or politics either because I usually AM offensive. Like with the hurricanes. Ok, it pisses me off that people don't evacuate like they should, then other people have to risk their lives to rescue the assholes. We're all supposed to "pray for them" and want to help them, but I'll be damned if I will. However if I go on my blog and say that, then I get a bunch of other assholes who want to leave me shitty comments that I'm not going to approve, and just make me even madder that the world is so full of idiots. If you see a hurricane coming, get the eff outta dodge, don't try to ride it out. Fools, every one of them.

So I know exactly where you're coming from. I want to entertain people and be a friendly person and meet interesting folks. You can't do that as much if you are debating people on how you FEEL about everything. I don't have to defend my opinions, their mine, and I just don't want to fight about it.

Jen W said...

I agree with you. I think it's your blog and you should write whatever you want. Love the Haiku.

Posh Totty said...

Your blog, write what ever you want, if someone isnt happy with what youv right, thats their prob not yours.

Write what comes in your mind, what ever that is (I do) at the end of the day thats what a blog is for.

Badass Geek said...

Heather: I figure that there is enough in the news that talks about current events, why mention them here? I'm with you on that one.

Jen W: Thanks! Haiku's are great fun to write, although after a while its hard to stop thinking of phrases in 5/7/5.

Posh Totty: You're right. I should stand by my motto of "Fuck 'em all" if people don't like what I right. =)

Moonspun said...

Badass, my friend, you are the KING of Haiku. I understand the dilema of the blog. What to write even if you are first and foremost writing for youself, there is an audience. But if you don't write for yourself then you rob us all. So you don't HAVE to write about god or politics, but if you feel like it once in a while. Go for it. I love your blog because you write about different things. some of them funny beyond words, some of them poignant, many painfully honest. And if I am offended by something you write (it's happened) it won't make me suddenly not want to read your blog or be your friend. I'll respect who you are. Promise.

Miss Grace said...

I love haikus, so you win there. Write what you want, we all set our own boundaries.

Employee No. 3699 said...

Your blog, you write what you want. I like you and I'll keep coming back.

Badass Geek said...

Moonspun: I appreciate your honesty. Thanks for standing by me. =)

Miss Grace: I knew you'd like this one, just for the haiku-ness.

Employee No 3699: Aww, shucks. I like you, too. =)

Sus said...

I only blog about things that I am willing to share with the masses. There are certain items, such as religion or politics, that I will only discuss with a very small circle of people. And I will never use my blog as a place to speak ill of my family or friends. If I am having an issue with them, I will address it with that specific person. I refuse to use this blog, even unintentionally, as a smear campaign against those I hold dear.

Now as far as the douchebags of the world are concerned....game on! :).

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