I don't remember a whole lot about my early childhood. I'm not sure if my clumsiness as a toddler caused some memory loss or if I just blocked parts of it out, but all I have are fragments of memories, mental Polaroids of certain moments. My first consistent memories start around age six or seven, but anything before that, short of the crumbs of memories I've somehow retained, is just blank.
The earliest memory I have of my life prior to age six or seven is kind of embarrassing. Considering my apparently subconscious inclination towards doing embarrassing things, that really shouldn't be of any surprise to anyone, least of all to me. I suppose that I shouldn't have to say that I don't remember why I felt so compelled to do this, but my earliest memory is of crawling inside of a pillowcase and getting stuck.
While I don't remember why I did this, I do remember a couple of other details. It happened after my parents had sent my sisters and I off to bed, and the pillowcase in question was quite large (relative to my size at the time, at least). I remember that I crawled in headfirst, and once inside I pulled my knees up to my chest. There was a fleeting sense of accomplishment at this point, but that quickly faded when I attempted to get out of the pillowcase and realized I was stuck.
With my legs folded against my chest, I couldn't take in a full breath. I gasped at what little air filtered in through the cloth and tried to free my legs. I flopped around, kicking and stretching, and eventually fell over onto my side. Panic set in as I struggled inside my cotton prison, and it never occurred to me to call to my parents for help.
Eventually I managed to get my legs free and I ripped the pillowcase off of my head, throwing it to the floor. I remember breathing deep the cool air and listening to the heavy thudding of my heartbeat in my ears. The memory fades to black from here. I'm assuming that I either passed out or I fell asleep from exhaustion. Either one would make sense.
As first memories go, that has to be one of the strangest ones I have heard. Everyone that I have told it to has laughed, and I do have to admit... It is pretty funny. Who thinks to crawl inside of a pillowcase? Only with the logic that a young boy possess would that seem like a good idea.
What is your first memory?