It is early Monday morning, the start of the last of my two days off for this week. The start of my work week normally looms ahead of me like something dark and ominous, but not today. I realized a couple of things yesterday, things that I probably should have been aware of already, or should have at least acknowledged. I'm sure that I have in some other capacity before, but for whatever reason I was finally able to wrap my mind completely around it. I guess sometimes, all it takes is the slightest, minute adjustment of the most simplest of things to make all the puzzle pieces finally slide into place.
I don't mean to be so profound on such a day where most of the world is trying to figure out how they're going to get through another week, but I came to realize yesterday that, despite all the things that tarnish the appearance of it otherwise, I love my life.
We have a small but comfortable apartment that feels more like home than any of the places we've lived before. We have jobs that pay us (almost) enough for our efforts, and allow for enough time to enjoy some of the fruits of our labor. We have our health, and we have family who love us dearly. Most importantly, though, we have each other.
Life smiled upon me when I met the woman who would become my wife. She is a wonderful and beautiful woman, whom I love fiercely and in every possible sense or meaning of the word. I know with absolute conviction that should every thing in my life fail and fall apart around me, as long as I have her to wake up next to in the morning, I will be okay. What's more, I take comfort in knowing that she feels the same for me.
The Boss and I spent some time yesterday unpacking some of the things for our kitchen and living room. Seeing our lives come together out of those boxes and storage bins, it just clicked. There will never be enough money. Cars will break down, jobs will be lost. Illnesses will come, some more permanent than others. These things do not matter.
My life, her life, our life, matters. For all that it is, and for all that it has yet to become, I love it.